Once I rolled over and opened my eyes to greet the sun that was peeking through the hazy mist at Newport, I realized the first thing that popped into my head when I opened my eyes, was that Ms. Kim Kardashian was now Mrs. Kris Humphries. I asked myself why I thought of that right away instead of being thankful that I am alive, thankful that I made it through the night and the laundry list of other things that I should be thankful for...I mean I have nothing in common with Kim K; other than we both breathe and are both female.
I have to admit, I was really frustrated that I thought about her and her drama filled, do anything to be on TV, screwed up family, act happy all the time because life is perfect,I dont have to do anything, rich, greedy little self. Why am I thinking about someone who thinks life is perfect, who (honestly) doesn't do any good for anyone, who has everything handed to her? The only she has going for her is her ass...and quite honestly, it's not that great! I have alot going for me! Why am I interested at all in her life? Why do I wish I was her? No one in my family likes her, they love(or say they do)me.
I am thoroughly annoyed by her. One comment she made was that "If I like a food, I'll eat it, even if I know it's not good for me." There goes the selfish me attitude, in the back of her mind she is probably thinking, "I can hire whoever I want to help me workout and lose weight like a normal person, I just wont tell anyone that I am working, and I'll look perfect!" However, I highly doubt she has done anything to earn the money to hire that person, she is relying on her Mommy and Step-daddy to front the bill, even though its through her banking accounts.
As I was laying there fuming at myself for being so ridiculous, I grabbed my phone and turned on the internet, checked facebook and prompty jumped on E! News mobile to check the lastest gossip and news. I read that Chely Wright married her fiancee Lauren, Lady Gaga has a bikini body and that our lovely 'Idol' Miss Kim is married; there had to be at least 5 different stories on the situation. Being the typical girl I am, I was happy that she found love(?) and I wanted to see the dress. I clicked on the title that screamed "Kim K is now Mrs. Humphries! See dress here!" The first time my phone had an error message that said 'No Response', I clicked again and it read 'Unexpected Failure'. I exited the browser, slide my phone shut and said 'Thank You Lord for calming my feelings and removing my desire to be involved in something that can't do any good for me.'
I didn't go to church today, I was at the beach. I didn't read my bible, I 'forgot' to bring it. I didn't go running while listening to christian music, my MP3 player was 'dead'. However, I felt that God talked to me more using my phone, 2 short messages and the one person I really can't stand, than he could have gotten through to me if I had done all those things I usually do.
This may sound a little 'churchy', you may be frustrated that I would post this. But this is who I am; I'm not perfect, I have never claimed to be, and I never will be. I go to church on an irregular basis, I like listening to christian music, although 95% of it frustrates me. I LOVE running, more than alot of things. I have also made MANY mistakes, but I will never 'regret' them, because dammit, that is what made me...well, me!
Ok, So update on the 'Man'......AMAZING!!!! Nothing else to say really, he is doing great. I am learning alot more about relationships and learning how to trust, but I wouldnt trade it for anything.
I am getting ready to head to Montana this wednesday for a week. We are going to go to the last race of the Western Hare Scrambles 2011 series in Big Sky Montana. I hope to do really well, I've been training my bum off and I think I am ready to lay it down!!!! :)
That is all I have to say about that...I need topics for blogs lol. I dont know what else to talk about, but I am in a writing mood...and I dont think you all want to read my opinion all the time. Sooooo..If you have an idea, let me know and i'll see what I can do! :)
-Emily
